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Thursday, January 22, 2009

DECISION!!

Yesterday,aunt finally arrived at Msia and reach home around 9.45! i introduced wendy to her,they have a short chat coz aunt doesnt know how to msn.lol.....*aunt praise wendy was a nice and gentle girl after i show her wendy's photo!
Later on,aunt call me to meet her for a while,she says got something important need to discuss with me..i was wondering"waoh! its already this late and you just come back but need to discuss something with me that fast!" well,after i said goodbye to wendy. i meet her! After the conversation,i can sense this is a very serious thing and i need to make a decision... the image of wendy keep flash back in my mind,i was thinking of her! i was reluctant to make any decision..this will effect my future seriously,i cant mess with it! if the application is success then my future will be greater than i dreamt..but can honey wait for me? i have said that i wont give up on her but am i being too selfish?do i think for her? can she really accept my decision? will she trust me? i wasnt thinking of my future at that time,i was thinking about her... but only god knows why i make this decision! i ask aunt to give me some time but she said its urgent! so,i beg her to give me one night's time,she agreed! at night,i look back at all the lovely,comforting msg honey had sent to me... i love you but i knew that if i didnt have a better future,i cant give you better thing,you deserve every thing im able to provide.. this morning,"affirmative" was my answer...i will about faced the problem some people in this world doesnt need to face with...it will be more complicated but after this,it will make my life easier and greater..just cross finger and pray that it will success! it is a high stake..the biggest bet i ever take in my life before!

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